aquatic_fishy

I may be the most insecure, self-conscious person ever.



My self-esteem is at an all time low, and I really really wish I would cut it out. Because I seriously cannot be pleasant to be around. Or even bearable.

"Jail is not fun, or so I've heard."
"Funny, I've heard the same rumors"
-Ryan and Daniel

Woo! I'm all rested! It feels grrrrreat! I am way behind on all of my internet duties though. ..but oh well.

Disneyland was great! We rode Thunder Mountain like a bajillion times, and sang really loudly along to the Pirate's song with the rest of our boat on Pirates of the Caribbean, and ate burgers in line for Matterhorn, and played cards in line for Matterhorn when it broke down one night, and sang happy birthday to Jessica with our entire monorail car when the clock struck midnight on her birthday, and took pictures where we pretended to be all barfy on the Tea Cups, and almost got kicked out the hotel pool for looking like hooligans that snuck in.

Back from the Disneyland grad trip with the BFFs. So so so fun. But maaaayn I am exhausted.

I am so glad I put my foot down and told people that today is my day of rest. Like, 3 separate people called yesterday to ask if I was doing anything today. I said YES. SLEEP. Like seeeriously. As much as I enjoy going out with everyone, I haven't had a real night's sleep in over 2 weeks and 9/10 of those nights I'd been out past midnight or later...cause I was always like 'Well... I'm tired but I'll go out and have fun anyways; I can sleep later." Well, it seems like later is never gonna come, so I will have make it for myself.

I am very proud of myself, because I have such intense difficulty saying no to people. PROGRESS! Woo!

So yes, hello again, internet! It's been a while!

Also: Party tomorrow!!!

Graduating today!!

The ceremony looks to be pretty boring. We've already practiced walking into and out of our seats like 4 times on two separate days. I don't know if I can stand that agaaaaaain. Especially since we won't be playing a big game of Catch Phrase while everybody up is walking up for their diplomas. There was a lot of us together for grad practice so it was a very fun game.

..But I'm really excited for Grad Night! Woop!Woop!

Oh, and I realized why I don't have more guys friends (well, non-art guy friends. Gots lotsa those, but this problem doesn't come up). I reeeeeeeally don't care to talk about cars, or sports, or Led Zeppelin. Seeeeriously. They listen to the most boring music in the car, and then get into really deep discussions about engines and point guards. It's nice to have a new(/additional) group of friends though. Not that I don't love my old/original friends. I believe the problem is that I love them too much. We are just so so so incredibly comfortable with each other that often when they come over we end up laying on the living room floor or my bedroom floor just lazing about and enjoying each others' company. Haha, we just don't have to try anymore. Which is awesome, but I do enjoy some new excitement every once and a while.

Beeeach day tomorrow! I'm excited! ...but also totally bummed cause the guys were gonna drive back up to have a bonfire after the bus dropped us back at school at 4. ...But then I remembered I have soccer 4:30 to 6:30. boo. And I can't skip cause Jess and Britt have soccer too and they're not skipping. Ah! I really want to go to soccer, but maaaan that bonfire would rock. THE UNIVERSE CONSPIRES AGAINST ME HAVING GUY FRIENDS.

Also tweetdeck is being a retard and keeps telling me I have 4 new status updates like every two minutes. CUT IT OUT.

Poll #1412686
Open to: All, detailed results viewable to: All

If a girl were to date the son of the woman her dad was dating, that would be....

Started watching Big Love in part of my attempt to fish for a show as good as Dexter. ..or at least somewhere near Mad Men. ...Meh... it's okay I guess. The country music and the accompanying accents and settings are a bit off-putting. ..And ALL, I mean ALL, the characters are douches. ...I love that Deb from Napoleon Dynamite is in it tho! (even if she has to be a douche) Her storyline with the daughter is my favorite.

As far I can tell, Big Love is entirely based on passive aggression and boners. Like, ENTIRELY.

ETA: I am also getting a seeeeeeeeriously incesty vibe

Confirmed my USC housing! I have a roommate named Jackie, and one named Alison. ...The others has weird crazy usernames so I'll find out their names later. ..I just went with Christina. BECAUSE I AM COOL.

And it just hit me that ohmygosh this is the arts floor AND ALL MY ROOMMATES ARE ARTISTS!!!!! OH MY I'M EXCITED!!


Haha, reading the contract now. ...Lol, there's a list of restricted items you can't bring into the room, and among them, simply, "piano". Darn it! And here I thought I was bringing the baby grand along with me to college.

Couldn't sleep Sunday night, so I ended up painting the man of my dreams rather than dreaming him, haha

Saw Star Trek. Kirk is helllllla gorgeous. He is my new love<3 Oh Captain my captain<3 What. A hawtie. (Also: Do people do Spock/Kirk? Is that a thing? Cause I think it should be)

Hmmm... been feeling pretty pukey lately. Don't know why. It could be lingering de-stress shock... but it's been nearly a week now. Pretty exhausted too. ..and I've been sleeping normal (not too little, not too much). Crazy.

Had an awesome prank planned Friday that went terribly terribly wrong. At the end of the night, the war paint stung as we scrubbed it off in failure.

AIR CONDITIONING! THIS MOFO'S GONNA HAVE AIR CONDITIONING NEXT YEAR!


ALSO I MADE IT INTO THE SPECIAL INTEREST COMMUNITY I APPLIED FOR. ARTS & HUMANITIES RESIDENTIAL COLLEGE. ARTS AND ARCHITECTURE FLOOR. WOO WOO. (really though, I loved all my choices. my second thru ffifth picks didn't have AC or art, but they woulda been a bit more social. ...so it balances out, whatevs. I'm just glad I didn't get stuck in the crap hall/tower, especially applying so late (and the social ones were the most popular so they prolly went fast). I think the special interest comm mighta helped that, since they're limited acceptance, so I'm guessing they go more by the special essays you write for the comm than just first come first serve by your application date.)

It's suite style with four doubles, so I'll have one roommate and 7 suite-mates. Fwee!


(I was planning on going to bed early but a 2 hour Grey's finale and this housing announcement has kept me up).

A: Man, I read you like a BOOK.
B: Slowly and on SparkNotes?

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Got my financial aid package for USC. $4,200. (plus loans)


ha! Paying the other $45,000 will be fun. funfunfun. shits and giggles, even.



_{......and yet I am still WAY WAY EXCITED TO GO!! Wee!}

I dream I'm on an island being chased by people. And I just keep running and running around the perimeter.

One time I found a house and ducked inside where I ended up having tea with Daniel Radcliff, but I couldn't enjoy it because ALL I could think about was how my friend Jessie (THE BIGGEST HARRY POTTER FAN WEST OF THE MISSISSIPPI), would hate me for getting to be there and not her.

I also used to have this one nightmare where I'm walking down a sidewalk on an infinitely tall hill, wearing a sundress and dragging my fingers along the slats of a white picket fence on my right, occasionally bending over to pick a daisy growing through the fence, all the while there's a countdown from 10 in the sky. SCARIEST DREAM EVER.

I has a date to Prom. Finalmente!

I kind of really hope he wears a skinny tie. I am in love with the trend that Mad Men brought back.

Plan for the night(/day):
*get nails done with all my girlies
*maybe get hair done with Pili (haven't decided if I want to cough up the cash. Better make an appt. soon tho if I am)
*get dressed and painted up at Jessica's house with urbody else
*dinner with the dates (or something equivalent if we decide to eat at Prom.... jury's still out on that one. Chelsea, of ASB, assured me the food is good... but who knows)
*PROM (for as long as party-pooper Brinny can stand it)
*After party with the dates and quite a few extra invites past our core group
*Laser Tag in an empty office building where we'll all sleep over (Some peeps' rents may not be cool with the boys sleeping over so we'll see how that goes. May hafta kick them out at some point)


House tonight! Woo!

Also I'm exhausted. snooooooze. Go see Wolverine. It was good. Mmuscles. mmmm. Also, how great was SNL? Fsking awesome, I say. The Ellis Island sketch nearly blew my face off. So tired. I might go to sleep now-ish. I already ate all three meals of the day in like a two hour period. 'swhat I get for missing breakfast and lunch and then getting called in the middle of my afterschool brunch to go to Yogurtland. so tiiiire

Is not 'Aquatic Fishy' a terribly feminine username? ...apparently no.

Nobody knows. I think I need to tweet more about cramps and post more anime to dA.

Lol, it actually amuses me greatly. I feel like I'm doing something right if you don't know for sure if I'm a girly girl or a manly man.

I back-flipped into the rope swing pool at the hotel I was staying at in Maui (in front myriad tan attractive boys), and the impact of the water broke the SINGLE plastic hook on my bikini top. Worst part was, I didn't notice until I felt fabric floating up against my face. ....Then I gulped a big breath of air and dove down to the bottom to get things straightened out.

Can someone please explain to me what is so great about dreamwidth? ....what all the hullabaloo is about? .....why I would want one?

I'M GOING TO USC!!!!!!!!!!!!


Sent in my SIR moments ago.

Yay!

Woo! 

Wahoo! 

Sweatshirt buying time!!!!!

I'm excited!!!

Can you tell???

Aw, my friends miss me. They went to Starbucks for Green Tea Frappuccinos (a tradition of ours) without me... and then drove to my house to sit in the driveway to drink them, haha. What sweeties.

Went and visited my Opa's memorial stone today. It was very nice, set along a babbling brook with a walking trail surrounded by wild flowers. My living Oma's name was also on the stone (with b-day but no death day engraved) which was a bit creepy. ...but it was cheaper. ...which is SO my Opa. Haha, he was quite the penny pincher in his day, but he enjoyed it, the sport of getting the best deal.